hodgepodge of muses.

today wasn't a real pleasant one for me. i got wronged for something i shouldn't be faulted for and i had to take the rap lest there would have been worse repurcussions. fortunately or rightfully, i didnt received any punishments in form of extras or anything. but i believe it's alright, tomorrow shall be a better day :) shall always take heed of what i learnt from qianhua jie jie i.e. to face the worse with the best feelings.

that aside, my life has gotten a tad more fufilling. jap classes started last sunday and i'm glad i had started all over from elementary 1 because my 1.5 year of jap basics barely allowed me to get through the first lesson. seemingly, my class profile is also rather cosmopolitan in the sense that we have malaysians, indonesians and singaporeans studying jap. apparently, my bunkmates have said that i'm hardworking and really into the process of self enrichment and they seem inspired too. good thing eh, i'm a positive externality!

speaking about economics, i borrowed two books yesterday. one's freakonomics while another is about hard hitter selling. i believe these two genres in general are really intriguing and appealing to me. freakonomics has been a good book so far as the author, steve levitt, deciphers certain myths from an economic point of view and using economics as a social science to investigate certain conventional wisdom. and did you actually realise that 'the apprentice' season premiere commenced on sunday night too. impressive credentials (harvard biz sch, young entrepreneurs, attorney and what not) were but ubiquitous in the show. but what really wowed me was that they were vocal, confident and had this air of professionalism and 'zai-ness' around them, especially when they were hawking memberships as part of the first round competition to consumers. sales and retails, remain as one of the field i'm passionate in. i believe it's a challenging one as you have to take into account many factors e.g. product knowledge, body language, communication competency etc. so that your consumers will be bought into buying your product! and my second book does shed some light on it. haha, but i hope it wont be yet another leisure read and may i pick up another thing or two.

something that left me thinking occured yesterday while i was leaving from my grandma's house after visiting her. an old folk was pushing his cycle while the front basket was filled by items like screwdrivers, pot and a saw. he gave me a meek smile while i tried to give way to him along the narrow path. he then tried to mount on the bike but lost his balance in the process and fell sideways. fortunately, it wasn't really a bad fall. but it dawned upon me that as one gets older, one becomes more vulnerable and precarious to accidents. what if this old folk (touch wood) had a bad fall into the drain and no one noticed? i shudder at that thought and the very sight. in fact, all the while i always have this sort of emotional attachment towards the elderly. be it during dramas or in reality, they always display this sort of vulnerability and the desire to be taken care by someone but it doesn't really happen. and when it really doesn't happen and something bad happens to them, there's always this feeling of 'xin suan' or rather your heart feels for this old folk and that you feel you should do a little something for him or her. yet all the more, i (we) often negelect my(our) own folks and take their presence for granted.

轻轻的亲亲
紧紧闭著眼睛
是你不是你说不定
还不一定.

stalled life no more.

it's been some time since i last updated my blog. of late, blogging or rather writing in general has taken a toll on me. in camp, i'm inundated with tons of documentation to be re-written and re-forged. and it doesnt just ends there. everytime changes are made, my friends and i have to repeat the whole process again. just hope to get things done and over with.

yesterday, i went to delfi orchard to sign up for my elementary 1 japanese course. i'm so motivated to master japanese and attain my qualifications. also, i was informed by joe from ReachFSC that the dates for the ocip has been finalised. it's from the 4/12 to 14/12 at philipines, cebu! i have no idea what will be in store for me over at cebu, but i'll be certain i'll go there with an open heart to look, learn and empathise. afterall, what can beat being there and understanding the situation in first hand? not the excerpts from those that went before nor the documentaries on television. more importantly, i hope to gain a new direction in life, to be more aware of what i want and what i have.