late night entry

apparently i typed an entry yesterday night (friday), but my computer suddenly sot and died on me. okay so now im blogging not at my own home but at someone else's. and it's none other than... bunny chan yan han. and i found evidence of his crime lah, in his msn login records. so he is the mastermind behind chanyukchuen@hotmail.com! ... becoz of this gay, i dunno for what reason became the prime suspect of the creator of this spam mail account. just because i played many pranks like muikoon@hotmail.com or impersonating sergeant muthu to scare the wits of our beloved boss, that doesnt mean i should be the black sheep of all crimes right.

EVIDENCE (MUAHAHHAHA)

dots, thanks hor. but nevertheless happy 19th birthday babe if you happen to read this. may your blessed one pop around in your life at the right time soon! =D

so... im glad miss witch and bunny are the new visitors of my blog haha. im kinda surprised actually. =)

today's morning was spent rather productively. in the morning, i was almost late for a talk on financial tips for the young at ntuc income centre. almost lost my way there and i started running when i saw the time on my phone. and as expected, it's a talk on investment linked plans. although it's yet another promotional talk, i learnt abit about equities and bonds. equities having higher returns but coupled with higher risk while bonds are the converse. also realised that there are a couple "layers" of fees that you actually pay i.e. to agents, fund managers etc. also, dr. money's there. for those that dont know him, he's the guy that gives periodic financial advice to the new paper. and apparently, the talk was conducted by the famous sudoku guy, the ceo of ntuc mr. tan kim lian. guess finance is really something that intrigues me.

in the afternoon, i met up with bunny, hz, junhan, bunny's cousin vincent and grace for lunch at crystal jade. mr birthday boy was giving his treat woo and pooled at tpy. so we pooled till arnd 5.30 then went our separate ways. weird thing is we met again at 10 for... durian -_-. bought durians but cannot find durian spot so decided to take bus to bunny's home to eat durians. but then the fields in to his house were soaked so lucky bunny's mama fetched us right home. so that's about the itinery for today, 29/04/06.

back to the entry i typed yesterday night. training at lim chu kang camp 2 is gonna get more intense. already being taken by sergeants having underwent special ops training, we thought things couldnt get worse. instead, our training sergeant, 1sg TEE told us to prepare 4 packet drinks full of sand. so come tuesday, we'll be lugging our webbing with 2 x full water bottle and 4 x sand packet for chin-up regimes and runs. gasp. soon, i'll really be booking out in pieces on friday. but i'm shure this training will be good for us in the long run. i think it's often too tempting to look at things as per status quo. we overlook what holds in the future and in the end we make regrettable and foolish decisions. will we only learn when we fall hard and lose what's precious to us?

bleahs, late night ramblings. ignore me.

maiden entry

it's been long since i last blogged. as to why i've stopped blogging, it's been a thing of the past i'd rather not wish to remind myself of. i'm using the same url and i wonder which of my blog visitors in the past will still pop by and read my log. if you happen to be one of them, plesase do tag ehs!

i've been having this numbing feeling these days every now and then, especially in this stage of my life. i have no idea how my peers are doing or how they perceive themselves in the present per se. but i'm kinda lost especially in this transitional period. the feeling of helplessness, insecurity and uncertainty. it's not here nor there, it's "in-between" in fact, i got this title after reading a forum thread mentioning that ns actually makes one feel that life has stalled and that we are brain-dead nsf. come to think of it, i havent been reading straits times and keeping to date with the "outside world" and it comes to a point that i somehow missed my GP lessons in my college days when reading periodicals is more a need than want. somehow now, the want factor overweighs the need factor.

disappointed i may be at my performance thus far, and perhaps this is a reason for me thinking that my life's stagnating, stalling and all in all - unproductive. i didnt get what i desire because i didnt work hard enough for it. but now, i'm not really bothered. my take on life has swerved from one of a result and performance oriented to that of being less demanding on myself and living to enjoy everyday as it is, albeit seriously lacking any reason for enjoyment in the first place. and life's a routine as normal- slogging for the weekdays and letting my hair down during the incredibly short weekends. i'm learning how to be happy and satisifed with the little things in life like meeting timed practical tests or just having some crap chat session with my fellow coursemates. insignificant it may be, but i guess it keeps me going on day by day. yet something i learnt from yin yue ri ji which is my best companion in a camp devoid of entertainment. nevertheless, i'll still push myself in my physical fitness. that's one aspect that i can never remain lax on.

but meanwhile, i'm really fatigued from today's pt.
nights out - 2330
reveille - 0830

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