to te mo tired.

i'm so tired, bleahs. workload from everywhere's piling onto me or maybe cause im a poor manager of time. but im as usual, feeling rather ambivalent. on one hand, i should feel very fufilled because my time inside camp is used up wisely by my commitments outside. on the other hand, i feel quite empty even though im so tied down. i dont know whether that's characteristic of a sagittarian ehs. let's hope not.

my friends in camp have said they pale to me in comparison to them in terms of how we all utilise all time and spend our lives and they said i live a rather fufilling life because my time is spent on volunteering, planning for my trip and event and learning japanese. sometimes, i dont know the reason for engaging so many different tasks at the same time. the ambitious streak in me? it strikes ever so often, especially so lately. as if my schedule is not packed enough, i signed up for a fund raising workshop next weekend from 9-5 each day and making up my japanese class which is supposedly on sunday, on my birthday.

next week proves to me to a hectic one for me. tuesday, i've to present a proposal to the commanding officer (co) and all the other big shots officers about the kayaking competition which im pushing it to a squadron level event. presentations shouldnt be too difficult for me lest the minor hiccups here and there during my presentation that i hope will be kept to the barest minimal!

also on my to-do list...
1) to find the quotations for logistical transport and trophies for my event.
2) liase with pastor alex for the project i'm taking charge in philippines (to build a toilet cubicle, 2 x water pumps and running a feeding programme - porridge with egg for 100 families!)
3) doing up a master log list
4) sourcing for sponsorships for prizes and thinking of possible prizes
5) trip preparation in terms of exchanging currency
6) get vaccinated.

that's for my expedition alone. what's more, i'm also the treasurer for de:xufto 07 camp for scouts next year and i'm procrastinating much on this. havent done up the template and started budgetting.

as of now, i feel like a giant balloon waiting to be pricked. so full on the outside, but so empty in the inside? i bought fish leong's latest album, it's great to listen to these therapeutic tunes.